After Thanksgiving

What a very emotional several days. We were blessed with family (my mom, dad, sister, and nephew) as well as dear friends of Tonia's. Amelia & Jeff and their children came to visit us this past Tuesday. What a joy to have these very special people in our home and in our lives. Thank you! Then on my birthday, Tonia's friend Wade came to spend the entire weekend. Wow, it was wonderful to have Wade, Sean and Rick to cook for and to just share precious memories. Wade has been a part of our family for years so I have my guys around!

We saw a great movie last night that made me cry; Ausgust Rush. It is definatley worth seeing. Today we went to the cemetery together. What a wake-up call to me. My wonderful, beautiful daughter is no longer enjoying the holidays with us but how grateful I am to know that she is in Heaven celebrating being with God! My emotions are all over the board. Happy for friends and family, sad over the loss in our life, and even angry that we have to deal with this. But through it all I will continue to trust that God is right here with us. He weeps when I weep and shares the memories and joy.

May God continue to bless you and your family during this very special season.

Holidays

Next week is my birthday and also Thanksgiving. I understand how the Holidays can be bittersweet. Tonia's high school friend, Wade, is coming to spend Thanksgiving with us which is wonderful! But the idea of Tonia not being at dinner is leaving me feeling lost, very blue and wondering how manu other people are feeling alone over the holidays.

I am thankful that we had her in our lives for 25 years. We would be starting to sing all of our favorite Thanksgiving songs by now. Christmas music would be playing on Thanksgiving Day especially Amy Grant's Christmas albums. Heirlooms was one of Tonia's favorite songs. We would sing it over and over together. Music will continue to be the link that binds my memories together.

As the holiday season begins I will remember the songs, the love and the memories and nothing will ever take those away from me. My prayer is that God will bless all of the people in our lives who have reached out to us in love.

May your Thanksgiving be filled with God's love and blessings!